Dating…post Spiritual Awakening ;D Briefly to catch you up, I have spent literally the last 3 years waking up. Having my heart broken to open it, cleansing my body, emotions and energy fields, harnessing the powers of my sexuality, setting all of my fears free and uncovering my soul. Now that that’s done, I have shed the shrouds that have kept me from truly seeing myself in all of my splendor, needing to find someone else to tell me these things make me worthy is no longer a need. I Love everything about myself, including so many things that 3 years ago I thought were flaws are just magic. Turns out every judgement I had about myself are the things I love most now.
Romantic relationships are a changin’ and I am prepared but no waiting. I am no longer in need of a person to fill the holes in my life, heart or soul. I was not broken I was becoming whole. I no longer need a relationship for companionship, security, love and acceptance. I offer all of these things to myself. I have met my match and it is me. I am however in the market for a partner, a Warrior of Light. Someone interested in knowing themselves to the core and beyond. Someone to enjoy getting to know me, for a few hours, months, years or decades.
Holding out for a Hero…Bonnie Tyler
“Up where the mountains meet the heavens above
Out where the lightning splits the sea
I would swear that there’s someone somewhere
Through the wind and the chill and the rain
And the storm and the flood
I can feel his approach
Like the fire in my blood
I need a hero
I’m holding out for a hero ’til the end of the night
He’s gotta be strong
And he’s gotta be fast
And he’s gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
I’m holding out for a hero ’til the morning light”
I went on a date recently and I was curious as to what dating is like with my new found freedom and awareness. Normally I would start by wondering if this one was “the one”?! Being single for a decade can create some interesting dating habits…LOL! This time it was more of a journey about what I might discover about myself and what I might learn about this other soul. What can we reveal to each other? What might we have to offer each other? For a brief time of course, laughter, insight, companionship, respect and enjoyment of getting to know each other. In the past, after a margarita and a tequila shot I would be wanting to make out ;D and the current me was considering it as well. I used to put so much emphasis on the kiss and it would give me a sense of a desire to know more. I no longer believe this is my guiding point to starting a relationship. I also believe that men and women have so much to share with each other and sometimes the search for love not to mention physical intimacy gets in the way of getting to know each other.
I had an unprecedented conversation with a wonderful soul, 3 1/2 hours of fun and great conversation. There was not a kiss at the end of the evening and I was very comfortable with this choice. It was my choice I didn’t even for a second consider if it was his choice or not. I did not feel the need to decide the direction of this relationship at this moment in time. Even in a subtle way kissing is a sharing of energy of a simple intimacy and I was not in desire to open that door. So in short looks like awakened dating for me has a lot less making out and lot more appreciation of my masculine counterpart.
I will admit however to being a shameless flirt. After the date he texted me and said “I did want to kiss you!” and I replied, “I have that affect!;D” I forgot to mention that being a shameless flirt is one of the things I love most about myself and I can still maintain healthy boundaries.
My Warrior looks a bit like this…
==== He lives in the light with a strong sense of integrity and is unafraid to face his darkness
==== He leads with is Heart and through kindness because this where real and authentic power lives
==== He has an unwavering desire to know himself
==== He sees the Goddess in me and is humbled, liberated and empowered in my presence
==== He embraces Love and knows he is a Warrior deserving nothing less than a Goddess
==== He seeks his destiny and follows his path with a deep knowing that he has come to find and reveal Love in the world, in himself, in me, in everyone…and he will not stop until his mission is complete
==== He is humble and bold at the same time
==== He desires the same of his partner.
Does this seem like too much to ask!?!?!?! I think not!! I think a Warrior would ask nothing less from his Goddess than to hold him to these traits. I believe everyman has these traits if they are brave enough to uncover, reveal and claim them. I hold a place in my heart for this Warrior.
Love All Ways,