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Goddess in search of a Warrior

Dating…post Spiritual Awakening ;D Briefly to catch you up, I have spent literally the last 3 years waking up. Having my heart broken to open it, cleansing my body, emotions and energy fields, harnessing the powers of my sexuality, setting all of my fears free and uncovering my soul. Now that that’s done, I have shed the shrouds that have kept me from truly seeing myself in all of my splendor, needing to find someone else to tell me these things make me worthy is no longer a need. I Love everything about myself, including so many things that 3 years ago I thought were flaws are just magic. Turns out every judgement I had about myself are the things I love most now.

Romantic relationships are a changin’ and I am prepared but no waiting. I am no longer in need of a person to fill the holes in my life, heart or soul. I was not broken I was becoming whole. I no longer need a relationship for companionship, security, love and acceptance. I offer all of these things to myself. I have met my match and it is me. I am however in the market for a partner, a Warrior of Light. Someone interested in knowing themselves to the core and beyond. Someone to enjoy getting to know me, for a few hours, months, years or decades.

Holding out for a Hero…Bonnie Tyler

“Up where the mountains meet the heavens above
Out where the lightning splits the sea
I would swear that there’s someone somewhere
Watching me

Through the wind and the chill and the rain
And the storm and the flood
I can feel his approach
Like the fire in my blood

I need a hero
I’m holding out for a hero ’til the end of the night
He’s gotta be strong
And he’s gotta be fast
And he’s gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
I’m holding out for a hero ’til the morning light”

I went on a date recently and I was curious as to what dating is like with my new found freedom and awareness. Normally I would start by wondering if this one was “the one”?! Being single for a decade can create some interesting dating habits…LOL! This time it was more of a journey about what I might discover about myself and what I might learn about this other soul. What can we reveal to each other? What might we have to offer each other? For a brief time of course, laughter, insight, companionship, respect and enjoyment of getting to know each other. In the past, after a margarita and a tequila shot I would be wanting to make out ;D and the current me was considering it as well. I used to put so much emphasis on the kiss and it would give me a sense of a desire to know more. I no longer believe this is my guiding point to starting a relationship. I also believe that men and women have so much to share with each other and sometimes the search for love not to mention physical intimacy gets in the way of getting to know each other.

I had an unprecedented conversation with a wonderful soul, 3 1/2 hours of fun and great conversation. There was not a kiss at the end of the evening and I was very comfortable with this choice. It was my choice I didn’t even for a second consider if it was his choice or not. I did not feel the need to decide the direction of this relationship at this moment in time. Even in a subtle way kissing is a sharing of energy of a simple intimacy and I was not in desire to open that door. So in short looks like awakened dating for me has a lot less making out and lot more appreciation of my masculine counterpart.

I will admit however to being a shameless flirt. After the date he texted me and said “I did want to kiss you!” and I replied, “I have that affect!;D” I forgot to mention that being a shameless flirt is one of the things I love most about myself and I can still maintain healthy boundaries.

My Warrior looks a bit like this…
==== He lives in the light with a strong sense of integrity and is unafraid to face his darkness
==== He leads with is Heart and through kindness because this where real and authentic power lives
==== He has an unwavering desire to know himself
==== He sees the Goddess in me and is humbled, liberated and empowered in my presence
==== He embraces Love and knows he is a Warrior deserving nothing less than a Goddess
==== He seeks his destiny and follows his path with a deep knowing that he has come to find and reveal Love in the world, in himself, in me, in everyone…and he will not stop until his mission is complete
==== He is humble and bold at the same time
==== He desires the same of his partner.

Does this seem like too much to ask!?!?!?! I think not!! I think a Warrior would ask nothing less from his Goddess than to hold him to these traits. I believe everyman has these traits if they are brave enough to uncover, reveal and claim them. I hold a place in my heart for this Warrior.
Love All Ways,
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Sister Love

This is to all of my sisters, the feminine consciousness. It is time to move forward with integrity, towards supporting each other. I notice there are many places to receive information regarding romantic relationships. I would like to bring forward the balancing, healing and releasing of all feminine relationships and return to loving and supporting each other.

In particular I would like to address adulterous relationships. I had a close personal friend that had an affair with my husband. Of course, in the beginning I had a large amount of anger about this seeming betrayal. On the other side of the situation I recognize that she was helpful in delivering me to my destiny. She was helping in a way that I could not help myself. This most likely may have been a cosmic contract we made together. Although my marriage was not the healthiest, this was the only way I would have had the desire and push to end my marriage. This was my get out of jail free card. I am eternally grateful for this gift. I graciously say Thank You for doing your part. I had many opportunities to recognize the dysfunction in my marriage but because of timing, fear or complacency I was not brave enough to go against the “til death do us part” belief. She may have just offered me an exit. I sometimes jokingly refer to myself as the leader of the pack, only to realize that I am in some way forging a path. The times they are a changing’. Marriages are dissolving because partnerships are beginning (more on this in another post ;D). Again I say Thank You to my friend for sleeping with my husband. You have set me free to find my partner.

For now my focus is sister to sister/woman to woman. We are all one consciousness, what we do to others we do to ourselves. It is time to lead with integrity towards each other. We each have a destiny. We each have used sexuality for centuries as a weapon, for power, control and trade for love, security or money. Often trading a bit of our soul. Our power lies in our ability to “enjoy” sexuality as an act of love, of raw and unbridled passion with an unwavering sense of trust and freedom, tapping into our divine feminine power. She does not take what she wants, she “chooses” a Warrior that inspires the passion of a Goddess. She is empowered by her inner strength to offer herself in a sacred relationship.

Close friendship between women is most definitely of soul and karmic relationship. We are entangled together in the same pool of consciousness. Who knows how many other adventures we have been on together.

Almost every woman I know has had an affair with a married man. What I know is…that if women don’t cheat, men don’t cheat. We are Warriors, and we…by standing in integrity require our Masculine counterparts to do the same. I have also slipped into this situation. Believe me, this post holds no judgement, I have been exploring the nuances of my soul and have stumbled many times. I have forgiven myself for betraying a sister as well as a brother, because I did not hold him to his highest good and I did not allow her the luxury of living in the light. Forgiveness is such a powerful word, for my intent was not to do harm. There is always a lesson to learn or some insight to be gained when you are in a place of seeking. Although this was short lived, it was somewhat toxic to my soul…I knew it…I could sense something shady growing. Perhaps this was a necessary experience, to have understanding and to heal this piece of a past I may not remember. I felt my heart break at hands of my choice to take what I wanted. I knew this was not my path. However, I was so terribly desperate for a connection that I was willing to take what was not mine, what was not free and clear. Believing temporarily that this is just how the world works. One single moment I crossed a line and I knew I could not continue, for not much grows in the shade. This person showed me who I am not. That was his gift to me. Just as important as our men and children are to us, so should our relationship be with our sisters.

Let all karmic cycles be dissolved leaving nothing but Love in its place. Let go of fear, guilt, shame, greed and vengeance. So many of the important relationships in our lives are karmic. This karma is extended from many other lives. Just as the masculine energy can continue to recreate wars because of past lineage, we have in a way done the same waging war on our emotions and those of our sister’s.

Let us cease and desist in unconsciously hurting our own souls and that of each others. Become conscious of your choices. I have become very attune to my emotions, feelings and thoughts. I recognize quite quickly when I am experiencing a negative vibration. I am choosing my future experience with every moment. If I take a particular step in any direction I ask is this something I am willing to repeat, something I am myself willing to experience at another time.

I beseech you to step off of the wheel of karma regarding relationships with someone that is not free and clear. There was a time when these experiences were used for our evolution for karmic balancing. Perhaps in a past life I had an affair with my friends husband and it was time for me to experience the energy, the pain the doubt and the deceit. I am no longer interested in continuing this cycle. It is time to move forward with our sister in mind. I also ask that when you speak of your sisters that you speak with kindness and a desire to know her and her journey, you never know what her mission and path is and what part you may have played before.

So I say, I Love You, I am Sorry, I Forgive you and Thank you. I say this to all of my sisters and to myself. This is for all of the women in my life, this life, past and future lives. If I have betrayed our friendship and/or you have betrayed mine I understand that it had a higher purpose. I release you and myself of any and all perceived feelings of wrong doing. Love is all there is! If we have indeed been in a karmic loop I ask that all karma be dissolved and that awareness and healing take its place. That residual suffering be laid to waste before us and that only peace and love exist in our collective consciousness.

I have so many other facets to share…Coming Soon
Mother to daughter- warm and comfy, learning/sharing and simply a vessel – all from a place of Love!
Conscious dating…Search for a Warrior of Light

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Turning It Back On!

Tapping back into your intuition…your own personal guidance. This is how it all started. I walked into Stella’s office and sat down. There is one other person in the room and they were already knee-deep in conversation before I walked in… I catch the tail end (no pun intended) of it and they’re talking about horses in the room. This is where I’m thinking… What did I get myself into! The room isn’t very big… I’m sure I wouldn’t have missed a horse… But she is referring to a horse “spirit”. Okay?!?? But within a few minutes she asked me a question that that centered me on the experience. She did it with one word. And from that moment on…I was a believer…in her gift. With one word she called me out on my skepticism and reinforced her authenticity…with a firm and gentle guiding hand. With one word the veil was lifted.

This experience was one of a guided meditation. I must say this was a first for me…and on a new level. You attempt to connect with a lost pet. I know how this will sound to “some people”…and I was a “some people” before I walked into this room. The experience I had was emotional. I shed tears…tears of a lost love. I suppose if you are looking for this type of experience this is a good way to go about it. If God can reach into your heart…of course it would be here…around a tender unguarded place.

And this is only the beginning!

Abracadabra

Abracadabra
I have heard this word has many meanings… I prefer this one: I create as I speak. I really like this! It suits me because I believe this is a magical time. I’m finding myself in a very comfortable place in my spirituality… and my attempt is to share all my treasures.

Have fun…be playful. With every breath in grow closer to consciousness…and with every breath out release your suffering. With every heartbeat build peace in your heart. When you see, allow your vision to be expanded to see beyond personality, see the soul of every person you meet and see the magic around you every day. Let your mouth be quick to smile, share a compliment and have a desire for laughter. During your hours of sleep…your body will automatically breakdown and remove any unhealthy elements into tiny tiny pieces that can escape your body through your skin, effervesce, rise into the atmosphere and burn away. Imagine as you sleep that your DNA and your inner physical body is being washed with sacred water from the core of this beautiful planet. That it is returned to its original vibration. You become more youthful, your bones heal and you become in the perfect physical alignment. With every step let your mind quiet, be effortlessly drawn to the things that guide you to your purpose, shed the emotions that weigh you down…grow taller and more toward the sun. Let the moons beams enlighten your soul. Shift to a path of understanding and gain the understanding without the necessity of going through a painful experience. I wish for your greatest good. I envision you as your best self… Happy healthy….thriving! And that you share these things in an instant, without words when you come in contact with another.
Abracadabra

Fab 5

My best friend is the man who in wishing me well wishes it for my sake.
Aristotle

Let there be no purpose in friendship save the deepening of the Spirit.
Kahlil Gibran The Prophet

There is no great genius without a mixture of madness.
Aristotle

Love is when he gives you a piece of your soul, that you never knew was missing.
Torquato Tasso

Words are a pretext. It is the inner bond that draws one person to another, not words.
Rumi

Dig This Cat!

Jalal ad-Dīn Muhammad “Rumi

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Let yourself be drawn by the strong pull of that which you truly love.
Rumi

Everyone has been made for some particular work, and the desire for that work has been put in every heart.
Rumi

Everything that is made beautiful and fair and lovely is made for the eye of one who sees.
Rumi

Let the beauty of what you love be what you do.
Rumi

We are born of love; Love is our mother.
Rumi

Listen! Clam up your mouth and be silent like an oyster shell, for that tongue of yours is the enemy of the soul, my friend. When the lips are silent, the heart has a hundred tongues.
Rumi

Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
Rumi

Through Love all that is bitter will be sweet, Through Love all that is copper will be gold, Through Love all dregs will become wine, through Love all pain will turn to medicine.
Rumi

Your depression is connected to your insolence and refusal to praise.
Rumi

However much I might try to expound or explain Love, when I come to Love itself, I am ashamed of my explanations… Love alone can explain the mysteries of love and lovers.
Rumi

Words are a pretext. It is the inner bond that draws one person to another, not words.
Rumi

What you seek is seeking you.
Rumi

Be grateful for whoever comes, because each has been sent as a guide from beyond.
Rumi

I see you!

Stop! “…what you’re doing… ’cause I’m about to ruin, the image and the style that you’re used to.” (Digital Underground). Apologies for those who don’t know me but it is very normal behavior for me to break out into song. ;D
I’m finished now…

Stop! Take a breath. Clear your mind. The next time you encounter a person any person…a loved one, a stranger an enemy…just see (not with your eyes) them. Attempt to see past their form, their body, clothing even persona. Seek first to understand… And I think this doesn’t mean use your brain I think this means listen. Wonder…be curious…be neutral…just “be” about every person that comes into your life!

Not to mention every person you know…knows something you don’t!

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P.S. After letting my daughter read this post…she reminded me that…some people are just the way they are for no good reason. And I totally agree some people are just Jackasses…but I say celebrate their Jackassery!!!!

Minister of Love

A new development!
I just “love” how life unfolds.
I was recently asked to officiate my best friend’s wedding. And there is no question for me… Absolutely… of course…I Will!

However, I won’t lie it was a very scary thought for me…I was not excited at all to be in front of a group of people speaking out about…well…pretty much anything. This is my first step to getting past that fear. And it couldn’t be for a more worthy cause. My passion at the core…love and healthy relationships = agape. Love without attachment to outcome. So what a jumping off point… Minister of love!

BTW…The name “Amy” actually means…beloved.

And so I become ordained. I can’t be more excited about what new adventure this may bring!

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“I want to see you.

Know your voice.

Recognize you when you
first come ’round the corner.

Sense your scent when I come
into a room you’ve just left.

Know the lift of your heel,
the glide of your foot.

Become familiar with the way
you purse your lips
then let them part,
just the slightest bit,
when I lean in to your space
and kiss you.

I want to know the joy
of how you whisper more.”
–Rumi